It's so weird for me...i found myself in a situation today where normally, I'd go running for my razors. But today when i was in that situation I thought, "You know what? I don't even WANT to cut right now." It felt good, knowing I would have usually cut, but it just sort of warns me that it's going to be worse when I do again.

I feel so stressed out, because I want to talk to T about this before it has time to come back, but we have SO much else to talk about...things that I feel are, at the moment, more important than this. I never feel like I have enough time to really get through everything. So right now, I'm not sure if we'll get a chance to discuss this or not. I'm hopefully going to get a phone call from her tomorrow, so maybe I can bring it up then...maybe start to figure it out before my session next week. I don't know...