No we don't live together. I get why he went online, he is so interested in computers and that.... And he wants to be a sound engineer. He was looking up stuff on soddering because he wants to start making his own circuit boards. And normally I don't care if he's online, because he doesn't have internet right now. But yeah i asked him to not bring his laptop(because I told him on sunday I dont feel like his gf anymore just his friend). He told me okay he wouldn't bring it, but then he used mine it just made me so angry because after half an hour he was still on there, And i was asleep on the couch cuz i gave up waiting for him. I don't know if I'm trying to make this like a movie and it's unrealistic but I just wanted to have the night the two of us, I wanted to just be with him. And yeah i wanted to be clingy!!!!
I feel like just telling him can we make one night a week where we do that and he just holds me and gives me his attention even if all the attention I want is to lay on my couch in his arms. But I don't know if I should. I feel like if we did that then it wouldn't bother me if the other nights he was here he was online, and I could go to sleep earlier than him as long as he comes up to bed evetually. And maybe then I wouldn't care as much when we're out and we don't hold hands as much or I wouldn't want him to hug me all the time.(like he feels I do). I dunno maybe I'm just too much of a touchy feely person