I used to go to therapy for a few things until i realized that they were no help at all and didn't do much for me. I don't know when it start and how it started. All i know is i get depressed frequently and at times out of control to the point that I don't even know why I'm crying all day for.What i realized the weirdest thing about myself is finding myself locking every doors or windows there is in the house then lock my room door everyday b4 i'm about to take a nap or sleep... even when i know that i'm home alone. If i don't lock everything my heart starts pounding and i get nervous, i thought i was just freaking out for nothing in the begining until i end up doing the same thing over and over again. and at times my rooms look extremely messy to me just because a few object is out of place in my room, i get so fruastrated to the point i spend at least 3-4 hours just to clean my room and make sure everything is in place... sad thing is my room is not as big..... and lastly i stop going out because i have a thought of anyone i meet and anyone i know is goint to screw me over at one point or another, and when i'm in the public i always feel like a certain person is laughing at me when i know for sure what she/he is talking about has nothing to do with me, I mean i just look like any 18 yr old girl that's obsessed with fashion & make up. but why am i so paranoid? I'm so scared to tell anyone about this, i don't want anyone to think i'm crazy but yet i don't know what's going on with me and don't know what to do. someone help..