soo..this is my first thread im not sure what to write...but um... I am only 17 and I found out that I am bipolar... last year my doctor thought I was depressed.. so she put me on anti depressants... they worked for a while.. but now they don't work at all...

It is getting worse I don't know what to do..
I even had a manic episode...my family didn't know though....
umm.. I even loose alot of friends because I don't want to go anywhere..I am scared that my emotions will change and ruin everything..
and I can't even see my doctor because I can't afford to see her...
My mom wants me to see a psychiatrist first...because I want to go to this Bipolar Rehab place in Tucson...
umm... im not sure what else to say...

i need some love or a group hug

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