I am moving shortly. I will have to find a new T and my current T has been helping me search and gave me a name and number of someone who might work in my new location. This person also said that if she did not work out then she would help me find someone there. The problem is that even though my T and I have been working on this (and my pdoc for finding a new pdoc- aren't they just the best?) I feel like in searching for a new T I am betraying my current T. I know that isn't the case and that she would be happy for me to atleast have some contacts when I move, as I will know no one else there. We have been talking about termination and it has been really hard. I can tell that she is also sad that I am moving. We were both hoping that I would get into school locally so we could continue working together. I'm just so sad. Maybe part of it is that making those phone calls really means that it is coming to an end. I have to admit how connected I feel and how sad this is making me? She is going on vacation in two weeks (I leave the middle of next month) and I think this is going to be the hardest vacation to deal with from the whole time we've worked together. I don't know how I can express to her how much she has helped me and how much her caring has helped me heal and grow. I'm scared of when I wont have my weekly slot with her. That no matter where I go and what I do I will take her with me in my heart (though we both agree she can't fit in my suitcase). Why does this have to be so painful?