since i have graduated, only like 3 weeks ago, everything has been changing already. i broke off my freindship with my BEST friend, i was sooo close to her we were like sisters. i have given up my plans for to seperate ideas of colleges to go to. i have no clue what i am going to do. i make plans easily b/c inside i never see them happening. its not really a denial issue or anything, i just literally dont see myself ever doing anything. its kinda like i feel like my life will end somehow before that. i do not understand my emotions either. i take my wellbutrin but i am still depressed and very irritable towards my family. i stay in my room all the time still, like when i am really depressed. i still struggle with cutting. i guess it is still so bad b/c i am not currently seeing a T. i am supposed to be but the one i was seeing hasnt contacted me since school ended and i dont know how to reach her. i was trying to transfer my case back to my original T but she hasnt gotten in touch either. i always spoke with my ex-b/f about this stuff but since were not talking i have NO ONE i can talk to. i just keep it all inside like i used to. i am trying to keep a journal b/c before when u isloated ,myself is when i got suicidal and cutting very badly. i am unsure of what i should be doing or what i can do. HELP!