Thank you Jen and Parker-
I appreciate all your coments. It is nice to know that I can come here and still get help with my life.
Jen-I do see a counselor, and he suggested I get on the computer today and vent out some of my garbage. He knows that coming here helps me get through the hard times when he is not really available. My next apointment is the 22nd, so I called him today because that seemed like an eternity away. Between talking to him, writing here, and talking to my MIL, and most of all my hubby, I feel a lot better tonight. I am still freaked out by the whole thing, but at least I know that other people are here for me.