I cannot find a psychiatrist but i know i have DID. My first diagnosis was borderline personality disorder. They later gave me ptsd meds because of night terrors. But i want to know how to deal with this. I didn't even know what was happening. i check my checkbook and it is overdrafted and i dont remember buying things. I have some alters with unhealthy behaviors. I am just scared. I finally know there is more than me and we have been switchnig rapidly sometimes. It is tiring. Maybe some of you know some things that can help. i feel out of control. I am scared and i never know when or who is gonna come out. we went to the doctor and someone must've coe out. you know why? it was cuz they looked at us like we was crazy. an i didnt even know. i jus thought why is you looking funny at me. we are all scared. anyone have advice or a good and helpful book for tools. im already in therapy. have been for years but i never would have thought this. i alos think we have somatoform. but cannot be sure until the last tests say nothing is wrong. we went and ahd every test ran this year. and evry test says i am normal. Anyone got some helpful tips of what helps them? i sure would appreciate it.