I had a horrible day today. My daughter had to go into the hospital for a scope which meant I had to go into an environment that I REALLY hate. To me a hospital is really gross and because she was dealing with a urine issue I had to help her in the bathroom which I dont even use public restrooms so my anxiety level was so high I felt I had lost my mind. I had to go with my ex-husband and having to spend time with him only reminded me why we are divorced. I have school work due on Friday that I have yet to finish it (I am so wired now I cant focus). Lastly I have to get my medical forms in or I will not have my medical insurance through the state and I am so stressed over every detail in those forms that I have drove myself CrAzY!!!! It took me 2 1/2 hours to find all the stuff I needed to fill out the forms and I ended up crying before I finished. I know alot of it has to do with all the stress of the day and all I have to do before the end of the week. I have a full day tomorrow and I dont know how I am going to get all my school work done. I push myself each term because I feel that I can not get anything other then A's. I dropped out of high school not knowing I had dyslexia as well as running away from an abusive childhood home. Now is my chance to show I can make something of myself and maybe get off of SSDI if I can get myself "well". I dont want to fail. I know I see things in black in white at times and I am very obessive about my grades but I just want to do my very best because I KNOW I can do this. Just like the lists I make for myself to do each day... I feel as if I dont ever get enough done. I know I am just really tired tonight. I havent gotten much sleep the past few nights. Maybe I will try to get to bed a bit earlier tonight and hopefully I will feel less anxiety tomorrow. Nice to just vent. Thank you.

~Dawn