I cut... have been for about two years on and off really. Heres why.. well i always feel alone, well i mostly always am! I hate it. My dad has my mom, my older sister has her boyfriend whose been living with us for a couple months cause his mom is a big fat liar and i dont like hearing about it. Since he moved in. I dont get ANY attention. All they talk about is him and his situation and or talk about my older sister. I hate it all!! I mean the only person I regularly like is my dad. he's been there for me alot more. I've gathered up the courage to ask him to take me to the doctor a while ago. Why? well, since i felt so alone and depressed i was going to see if i could get anti-depressants. That was a month or two ago.... I have gotten the pills. but im not sure if they work really. Last night i cut again. And ovb. nobody really cared what i did. It was about 12 am. I took my only lamp and stuck it in this little cubby hole i have by my bed and cut in there. idk why nobody would have been the least bit suspicious i mean i was in the cubby hole for atleast 1/2 hr. Like i dont like my life. My mom is a lazy b****. She and i dont get along well lets just say. I've tried running away about 3 times ish. I dont really talk much. I've phoned kids help phone. The guy told me to write a letter to my parents. Well.... that kinda made things go downhill a little bit. Idk why. they were glad i did so.. couple days later more chores added to my list. I hate this!! I just want out of this place.. PLEASE!!!! :'( Am i able to get adopted? at all. is it too late for hope!? I mean if i stay here longer ill keep cutting/running away. I need a sense of hope for once. Please help me get out of here!! I beg you!
      
Last edited by Christina86; Jul 11, 2009 at 10:58 PM.
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