Thanks for your support everyone.

Again, I think the recent suicide has spun me into orbit. My 38 year old brother died from an overdose of Heroin. I never considered that to be "suicide". Accidental maybe, but T made a lot of sense when she talked about self-destructive behaviors, death wishes and just not caring whether you live or die from your behaviors.

My 42 year old brother died of Aids from needles and again, that didn't seem like suicide at the time. . . but I guess any gesture (like my sister-in-law swallowing pills because life is unbearable) that could result in death has to be looked at like "slow, eventual suicide".

I dunno. What the hell is the difference. They're gone. Screw 'em. They weren't there for me as a kid and they're not here for me now. Goes to show how important I was when matched up to heroin.

Thanks for listening.