I can so relate to all of the above posts and what makes it so hard for me is that up until 6 months ago I was the person I wanted to be. I cannot believe that this is the way I will live the rest of my life. I do not want to live the rest of my life like this. I became depressed due to many stressful things that happened all at once including returning to work after 7 years of retirement. I freaked out and had to quite after two months, but that did not make things better...I continued to become more and more depressed and am now on the 5th anti-depresant, going to therapy, using a CPAP machine to sleep...None of tht seems to be working or at least, not working very quickly. I hate this life and am worried about the effect on my marriage. I do not work now , but do almost nothing every day. I also seem to check this board too much. Thanks for listening or reading.