I cut off most of my ties with my 'best friend' last night.
I'll give background first. She's planning her wedding, or was.
I was visiting her and helping, alot. We'd narrowed the weeding and
bridesmaid dresses down to a few. Tried helping with rings but have
something of a taste clash lol. Now, I hadn't been taking my meds in
any manner of properness so was quite unstable. Talking to her and
her fiance on MSN they said something that hurt because it reminded
me of my ex that broke up with me two days before Christmas just
gone. I was also missing a good friend of mine who also happens to
be my first love. I was also a fair bit down because it looked like I'd be
the only person flying solo at her then airport wedding. But I was
helping her as much as possible. SHE KNEW ALL OF HOW I WAS
FEELING AND WHY. I also talked her out of cancelling due to cold feet
twice. Last night she told me the wedding wasn't going to be happening.
I asked why and she said because it was obviously a pain in my arse to
help her because my personal message on MSN was "helping a bride
plan her wedding is hard work lol" AND because I was more upset that
she was getting married and I wasn't. She KNOWS I have NO wish
to get married!! So I've blocked her on MSN and remoced both her
and her fiance from my facebook Friends. I'm sick of always being the
one in the wrong with her. Oh, and after that **** last night she changed
her MSN display name to "aint no **** kicker" and her personal message
to "true friends are true friends when you need them. and are happy
for you when good things happen instead of being jealous".
I WAS ****ING HAPPY FOR HER!!!!!!!!
HOORAY FOR BEING OFF MY MEDS!!!!!!!!
  
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