Welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry that your hurting right now. I was once married to a man who was physically abusive, and verbally abusive. Your going threw some of the things that I went threw. It sounds to me like you have just shut down. Personally I would leave the relationship. Abuse is just not good for anyone. If you want to still be with him than you might need to go to couples therapy, and he needs therapy on abuse. Once that scar is there, you just can't shake it off.