Boy! How I sooooooooo agree with Jerrymichele.....

Granted, any abuse should never be tolerated, and all is harmful. But being a victim of emotional, verbal and physical abuse I can honestly claim that I believe the emotional and verbal (perhaps, they are one in the same), is far more damaging than the physical. It definately kills the spirit....leaving wounds so deep that they may very well be beyond repair....(with that person, anyway).

Sounds as though you've definately have gone into shutdown mode, which is perfectly understandable, and almost impossible to get out of while remaining with the source that sent you there.

You may find yourself having to leave the relationship in order to obtain any sense of self again....(exactly where I am at present). I've tried to reconcile with hubs while together....No chance. I've gone far too past any reconciliations now. The damage is done.

I wish you the best, and hope that you do obtain the space you need in order to find yourself again.
I'm so sorry this is happening for you.

Take care~

Shangrala