((((((((((((((((((((kerria)))))))))))))))))))))) you certainly have so much going on right now. IRL and in your online support areas. i'm so sorry.

if t will not help you to find another t...find one yourself, or enlist the help of friends, pastors, md's, p'docs, etc. you can find a t that will help you. a t can't control a person's feelings when they leave t sessions, and when doing deep work, one is going to leave there in despair sometimes. however, it SHOULD NOT be every single time. that's too much for any survivor. if you're indeed leaving every session in complete despair, you must start looking for another t. please make sure the t has training in trauma/abuse. my t knew nothing of DID but what he'd learned in school and was able to dx me and is treating me so well. we're doing great there. it's back and forth work, though.

i know it feels like you won't make it sweetie. i feel that was too sometimes. just go minute by minute right now and begin the plan of researching a new t, then interviewing them until you find one for you.

please keep us updated. we care.

kd