Ohhh Fuzzy, why so hard on yourself? You cannot control what others do......we can only hope that the people we share with are going to support our vulnerable and precious spirits as we ourselves do......

It is not always so.......you will experience many bad apples before finding the one that is not rotten and provides nourishment.......it is not about WHO you are, it is about the people that you share it with. You have nothing to "feel bulls%^t" about, my sweet.......you are a precious human being who is willing to share, despite all that you have experienced.....

It is a hard road to reach shared intimacy in relationships, friends or otherwise. Don't give up........you lose nothing if you weren't prepared to give it away on the first place. You can share without giving yourself up, okay?

You clean that blood up, that pool that you find yourself in, knowing that you are not drowning in it. Love it for its pain and accept that it will change as all things do.......and LOVE yourself, despite your anger and hurt.

Be very, very kind to yourself........forgive them for their ignorance and hatred........that is not you so don't subscribe to it. Remember, as much as you might push them away, they must also be prepared to leave.......it takes two to tango.

You take care, my sweet........give those fuzzy paws a kiss for me..