I do go to a griefchat, it was suggested to me earlier this year, when my brother was dying. While it is a nice chat with nice people I can't really talk about my father there...

I can't explain that I'm not sad he died cause he was a horrible man etc, cause twice now they/someone told me not to talk about 'my hate for my father if it doesn't really bother me anyway & there are new people here who just lost their dad' 'that's horrible, inconsiderate' etc... So I don't mention it... Might try again sometime, dunno.