The guidance counselor at my high school (I'm 15) is really creepy, she looks like a vulture. And I don't have a doctor either, our family can't afford health insurance, but even if we did I'm not sure I could talk to him about it. I think I can type about things way better than saying them out loud.

I can try to keep talking. I already have more than I've ever done before. It's really hard to me to talk about stuff like this. I guess it might be the best thing I can do.

But, I guess, I'm still trying to figure out why what I've been doing all these years is so bad. I mean, it's not that bad, is it? I know I'm not "supposed to" or whatever, but it's not bad, maybe.
I don't know. I'm so confused.