Blue---I'm so glad you have relief....obviously I'm not happy that someone died because at one time he was loved by someone and because without him we wouldn't have you....however, I am glad that you will never have hurt from him again (not new hurt, anyway).

I've said this before and I'll say it again, you are an amazing young man---the hell you've gone through in your life is unimaginable to me, and you still take the time to care for others....you deserve the relief you feel. Your emotions are yours and good for you for not letting others dictate to you how you should feel.