I've been in OP therapy for a year & a half for my anorexia. I'm afraid to recover because I feel like this is my identity. I want to slip back to my old ways & go back to the "too low" weight I was last year. I'm getting ready to go through some changes in the next 3 & a half weeks & I will be again next January, when I go back to college again for another degree so I can have a different career. Plus, my self esteem is low, so I want to go back to my old ways to cope. My treatment team & nobody else will let me, though! Can anyone else relate?

I'm sleepy now, so I'm going to log off & get ready for bed!