im 14 years old. well i dont really believe in god. my parents never took my to church or anything. well one of my closest cousins, she's 15, she talked to her mom about helping me get into foster care but she said no. like i dont really know how it works or how to get into it but i really need to. LIke earlier today, i had to help my dad retag some of the cows ears on my farm where i live and my dad gets mad and angry really easily. When some of the cows wouldn't co-operate he would kick them really hard, hit them, and twist their tails. so i was by the cattle squeeze where they had to go into. i was yelling at him to stop hurting them unnecessarily. I had tears streaming down my cheeks. He came up to me and started yelling at me. He was really close to me. I started crying more and backing up away from him. My mom, my sister and my step brother were all there. and they did nothing, nothing at all. I need to get out of here. if i stay here longer, i'll keep cutting.. more and more. and i'll keep getting neglected and yelled at. i'll keep getting treated like this.
Please