Wow, I only have my 3 meds + birth control. I wonder why the p-nurse won't add anything else when these clearly aren't doing it for me. She and my therapist think just because I'm "functional" meaning I can go to work 1 day a week and perform my duties, occasionally go to the grocery store, shower, and eat, then I must be okay.

As for antipsychotics, Seroquel has worked for me, but only to get rid of the scary things than intensify before bedtime and in order to get to sleep.

I took 3 last night (i'm allowed to take 2-3 25mg for sleep before bed) to make sure I'd be out. Today's the day the dog has to be put to sleep. She was such a beautiful, loving, sweet dog. A therapy dog in fact. Went every Friday to the old folks home and just sit with people and comfort them. So full of life and energy. I swear she was smiling half the time. More full of life than I've ever been. I think I need to go back to sleep. I'm too sad. Thanks for everything you've said. You encourage me more than you know.