Marjan,

You sound very wise. Thanks for your comments. It sounds like something that I needed to hear. Yes, I am putting too much thought into this relationship. One of my problems is OCD and I do obsess a lot about it. I obsessed a lot about it even when things were good between us. I had been planning on sending her a brief letter or it’s possible I would see her one day this week and then talk to her a little. Now, I’m not sure. Maybe it would be best to let time resolve it. It just seems like a lot of time has already passed.

You said, “Try to find peace and happiness inside yourself, in your mind rather than outside.” I realize it’s a mistake to try and find happiness in another person. But how do I find it within myself, where it really counts? Sometimes I just feel so empty inside. Then that leads to depression… Like right now I feel empty.

"I think this is really good for you that your friend is denying you. It's a good lesson for you. Take the opportunity and learn from the lesson." It seems to be a hard lesson to learn.

Dwayne61