So this past weekend I went to a party, (my boyfriend was with me) and I ran into an old friend that I always had a "thing" for. He held my attention more then my boyfriend had the entire night. If you've read my previous posts, my boyfriend and I are doing great and are happy, but I can't stop thinking of this old crush that just kind of came back into my life.

We went on a date once, I had always considered it a date, but I never knew how he had felt about it. It was so sweet! A real dream date, we went out, in his truck, listening to country, mini golf-ed ( and he let me win), and then ate ice cream on the bed of his truck. He then brought me home to meet his family and we all sat together for a while then they left us alone. I got a text from some other friends about how they were having a party, and I tried to convince him to come, but he didnt want to. I made a mistake that night and left and went to this "party" which was like 3 boys so I went home after all. I always kicked myself for it but am now kicking myself even more.

At the party this weekend, I asked him what he thought about it, and he told me that he did too consider it a date and that he was really bummed out when I left. It makes me feel soo much worse. And now I can't stop thinking about it and him! The whole night we were together this past weekend, (no lines were crossed), but I was having a great time. My boyfriend was inside the whole night watching the UFC fight and it was like he didn't want anything to do with me.

So now I'm stuck! I can't stop thinking about this old crush, and when I really think about it, there are so many things about him that are better then my current bf. But I have been without this current bf and its almost like I didn't know what I had til I lost it, and I fought so hard to get it back and I dont want to take the risk of losing him forever. But at the same time I don't want to settle. Could I be getting bored with my current bf.. and is that okay? ahh HELP PLEASEE!