well i am not officially diagnosed. my story is long. however my hubby knows it. I talk to him as other people. he noticed. i would say something and not remember. he would hold me for two hours and then get up to go to work and i asked him why he never held me. It makes him angry. today we went to the clinic and talk to prescribing rn. i asked for zoloft because it helped me in the past and she kept saying she would only give me an antipsychotic that i hurt myself on. i told her no zoloft worked for me. they wrote the wrong diagnosis in the charts and they wont fix it and it is messing everything up. i know my mental health records say borderline. even my disability paperwork does. then i say it is misinformation and she says" so what do you THINK you are diagnosed with?" I told her it is not me thinking. i know what im diagnosed with. then she goes back to wanting to put me onmeds that i told her were detrimental I started getting irritable then because i was irritated she said i was irrational. I dont want to say the rest. we got ourselves a psychiatrist now but cannot see them fo another month. i hope he listens. i hope he is good. i wish someone would listen to me. my ptsd is intense and worse and i know zoloft helps. i dont want to go through it all my life history and mental health history. I guess getting one of those books or both might help. money is tight right now. truth is when i was on the antipsychotics they made me psychotic. no meds ever seemed to help. zoloft however took away the hallucinations. but i think they were flashbacks. unsure i am really tense and scared, and alone. i dont really have .anyone. im so scared. i have had several traumatic events within the last two weeks. i dont know what to do i am even afraid i will offend someone here. i am scared. and my memories coming back aren't so nice either. im so scares. im so scared