Hello, it's been a while since I've been on here. I am in my early 20's and there are two men that want me to be their 24-7 submissive and I am just torn between the two. One of them, who is 44, he and I dated for 3 months earlier this year and it didn't work because I was unfaithful. Now he wants me back. The other guy, who is 47, lives in California. He wants me to come live with him where I would be a perminant sex slave. This does sound appealing but is this healthy for my psychological wellbeing? I love them both and want both but I don't know. Maybe I should just forget them both and move on, but I'm addicted.

Both of these men are unhealthy in their own ways but I feel a calling to be in a relationship with at least one of them. Like all I am good for is sex. I'm starting to feel like this. Like I'm just been put on this earth to please men. I'm starting to interalize this.

I guess I don't know what I want... maybe I need to do some serious soul searching.