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Hello, I actually need more ur suggestions and thoughts on this more than support. I have been in this situation for so long that i kindof figured out what is going on, but im scared that it might be even worse and stuff ok, i'll just some it up. I'm olmost 18 now and im a girl.
3 years ago i had this new teacher, he was 29 and handsome.
I was 15 and as a young girl you get ur crushes, he was funny, kinda arrogant and new and i liked it. Little girl crushes are nothing real, we know that haha. Only weird thing i noticed that year was once he had to talk to me infront of other teachers he wouldnt look at me, for the rest he acted normal, as far is i noticed.
but lots of girls had crushes on him and more of them where older so they gossiped about him. he joked and stuff, but never intended anything wrong , he is a good man not a perf, i know him personally and just trust me on that!
imagine having 2 kinds of girls, 1 girl is in love with him, the other one isnt.
when he says "you can always come to me if you have a problem"
the girl that is NOT in love will take it as it is, he is being a teacher a nice man, normal fine
the girl that IS in love, will take it as she wants it to be "ohh he likes me , wants to be alone with me blabla"
so thats where those stories came from. a year later i told him all the gossip, he punished the students and he treaded those girls bad and me good. when i asked him if he was doing that on purpose, he said no. i helped him. i lost friends (well bad friends) over it. bt thats ok. i saw who they truely where.
then everything was fine for months, all the sudden. when i was like 16, he couldnt look me in the eye anymore. he turned red around me and avoided me. over a year untill i was like 17 i tried to figure out what it was... as u prolly think urself, there prolly became some feelings?? (its loose from the i helped him story, its just i thought it maybe was inportant? lol) my crush was over but i do have to admit i have caring feelings for him. even tho he annoys me with his behaviour. for a while when i was still 16 i was so confused by it that i had to go see a person who talks with u about ur problems and my grades went down and that untill i realised what was going on, i did tell some big people how he behaved to me but they have a contract that they cant talk anyway, i confronted him with his behaviour and said i imagined it and stuff. he also said he has spys that pretend to be ur friend?? wtf and he said that months later infront of the class i was in too.
that went on for a while, sometimes we had for a week that he was , well as always red and not looking in my eyes, but when i dont look he has to look at me and he holds back a smile kinda face, when i was pissed of with him he also got pissed of, and he practaccily took over the emotion I was showing. and when i did sth, like calling him a jerk in class, he just ignored it and he was just being cranky, but not saying anything
this year when i was 17, he started to involve friends. not help them and try to get away from them as fast as possible, while they are like any other students, only my great friends. we also have this kindof site like facebook (diff but also a kindof profile site), he is also on there with his wife and like all students add him. i never added him, but he blocked me and his wife (!) blocked me too. then one night i was talking too 2 friends at the same time and he was online too, he kept coming online so i could see him for like an hour while i was talking to them both (both friends had him in friends list) and then he removed both of them from their list. On e friend, a guy, he didnt only removed, today, he blocked my friend. but its vacation and im at home, not doing anything. i was at school with my friend, and he walked trhough the back to go home instead of the normal way, cuz i was there.
+ there are thse 3 girls that are like, they do whatever he says, they also have some kind of job in the school. 3 seeked contact with me, but one of them asked my phonenumber and msn, but on that profile site (where she has the teacher and his wife) i cant talk, she keeps removing my messages like someone is not suppose to see it? and she was suppose to be in paris and still she got to delete it. idk if that has sth to do with it, but i keep remebering his weird spy thing.
so, there is a teacher i care for, he suddenly cant look at me anymore and gets red. he does look when im talking to friends and knows where i am, sometimes he coughs untill i look over, when im mad - he turns mad, when normal and happy - he is like "hihi" , but still he tries to avoid me and block me away but at stupid momets he still wants attention and wants to look.
+ i dont get the whole starnge behaviour suddenly towards my friends.
i tried to look out of his eyes, ya know, having a job in a school and a wife
then me but soometiems i find it scary what he does.
he had to search me up on that site cuz i never sended him an invivtaion
i can tell u a 10000 of situations where i can talk about his behaviour
but i want answers, ur thoughts, ive confronted him many times but he makes up lame excuses that are logic that they arent right but still in a way that i dont know what to say anyway
i dont know what to do?
some things creep me out too.
like the spy's and his wife blocking me.
and suddenly treading my friends bad.
i got used ot the behaviour
evetho the blocking me away thing
fits weirdly with the weird attention seeking he does too.
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