I was recently (within the last several weeks) broken up with. Two days after the breakup I lost my virginity to the same boy... it was a conscious decision on my part, for a lot of reasons I won't get into unless someone really wants to know. After we weren't "together" anymore I felt free and good. I came to the conclusion that I love him, and it felt good to know that it wasn't just because I was dating him and more or less had to. After we had "slept together" twice I called him late at night and talked to him about things. I wanted to know what he thought about me, because he never really told me. He said that he really only sees me as a friend. We went for several days without any more than friends situations. Then, at a party, I spend most of my time with other male friends instead of showering him with attention like I normally do. When we inevitably ended up in my room together to go to sleep he admitted to me that he was jealous. Which seems like more than friendship feelings to me. He spends the night at my house for the first time with me. He had never wanted to before when we were dating. Then last night was the major turning point (in my mind). Up until last night I had felt like we were still just friends. He came over to my house to watch movies with me and my brothers. Normally he wasn't a "public displays of affection" kind of guy. He even sometimes flinched away from me when I went to ruffle his hair (even though I do that to everyone). But last night he had his arm around me in front of my brothers I just snuggled into his chest. He didn't seem hesitant at all about showing me affection. He stayed the night for the second time, and didn't leave early or seem embarrassed when my family made a point to invite the both of us to breakfast while we were still in bed. I don't know what to think about this sudden turn of events, but I also don't know if he'll be the same next time we're together. Does this seem like we're dating? Or am I just taking things the wrong way?
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