Today has been horrible. I woke up in a panic attack. And then all of the sudden a few hours later I felt dissociative. Like I was in a dream. Or I was'nt real. I keep having "flashes" in my mind. Of things I don't think I have ever done or seen but they come and go so quickly, I don't have a chance to know what they are, I just know that it is not "normal" for me to do that. But I am scared about it. My sister said she does the same things when she panics. I don't know what to do. I go to my doctor tomarrow to have my thyroid checked but he don't deal with mental illness. And he thinks it is not a health matter for a genral doc. So I don't know. I am just so scared about it and I hve no clue what is going on in my head. That scares me the most. I don't want to end up in a hospital away from my sons and husband. I think mabye that I have let this panic go so long with out treatment, that my min is dissociating just to cope with it. But I don't want to dissociate. It unerves me and makes my anxiety way worse. I'm doin good to just sit in here on the computer typing this. I want to go in my bedroom, shut the door and go to sleep. But I can't do that. Does anyone have any advice? Or does anyone else have this problem? I need help but I don't have an appointment till tomarrow. Just some one please reply.