Yeah, that's exactly how I feel, FooZe. You've hit the nail right on the head there!
I guess I don't want to go back to being that shy, scared and cowering little kid again. It's not a nice place to be --- in fact it's the worst place I have ever been! So yeah... No going back there, thankyou very much!

I'm tired.. And weak... And just feel rather crap today. I think I need more sleep. But I have so much to do!