A revenge, thats what i'd really like to do since i was in highschool. My sanity keeps me away from it. Im actually a nice person, may i say too nice, people then always use me in a bad purpose, thats what i get from being nice to people? they fooled me around? well f that!!!!

My anger, depressed, hatred, pain, all mixed up. sometimes i dont know what i want anymore. i always said that it hurts to be alone, but it looks like i choose to be alone rather than being with them, cause when im with them i dont feel they respect me as much as i respect them, not even a bit! when i thought everything is ok, there's always something's bad coming out of their mouth that was pointed at me in the end. i dont like that at all, they wouldn't like it either if i say that to them, but i cant do that cause its not what they are, i will never win with them. and yeah i am what i am and i hate it. can you understand what im saying? when i try to love myself, try to make myself happy, its not permanent.