Hi. I just to let you know that your not alone with all that. I have the same problems too. But I don't take any meds. But what I do try to do (I'm still learning how to) is to focus my thoughts on something else. Like reading or the T.V.. My friend told me to light a candle and watch the flame. That helps too. Sometimes when I'm having those bad "s" thoughts, I go outside with my dog and walk around in the woods. I concentrate on everything I see like the trees, or concetrate on how the wind feels. It sounds kooky but it really helps get my mind away from the negative stuff and it helps to get the sick knot out of my stomach. You ought to try that out with your meds mabye it will help you. I hope you get better. I know how it feels to have those thoughts and feelings.