what the f... is up with my body? i finally reached a halfway mark. since college ended for the sem, my body refused to budge from 110. when i broke the mark, it then refused to reach 105. yesterday, i made that 105pt. i was elated and didn't eat anything all day. then this morning the d...scales said 106. how can that be? no salt, no food, just a lot of sugar free jello, diet coke, and a couple sm. cups of coffee. it's soooooooooo frustrating. this is war! my body will not win. i'm tempted to limit fluids liike i used to just till i conquer this crazy alien that's winning. a little voice inside is scared though. i'm so depressed that i'm living inside this body that refuses to yield to my attempts. the women and girls are so thin on the beach. it terrifies me. they're so pretty, some beautiful, some absolutely, irresistibly gorgeous. life is so unfair. all i want is to lose a few pounds. why is reaching 100 such a brick wall to break through?