Dear Sherrilana,
Don't stop seeing your dr. and therapist. Don't stop your meds without their guidance. I had a good friend who was a lot like you but she wouldn't even admit that she had a problem. I struggled with Panic attacks about 4 years ago and even ended up in the hospital because I thought I was having a heart attack! I researched and learned a few things like deep breathing and talking to myself when I felt my body going crazy. I started thinking about those swamis and even Harry Houdini who can slow their heart rates down just by concentrating. Or Karate and all the focus it takes to break a board or cinder block through focus. So when I felt my body going nuts and my heart start to race, I sat up in bed, or slowly walked around and focused on breathing deeply and slowly. I told my mind to shut up and relax. Controlling self-talk really helped me. I used to live isolated in the country with no job and a bunch of kids to take care of. It can make you feel loopy! Try to join a health club or church or social club to get some adult interaction..And forums help, too!
God Bless,
Wondrwoman