(((((((((((((scotlandskye))))))))))))))) (I added the trigger icon, just in case)

You did really good. Stopping self injury is HARD WORK. Anyone who says differently is either freaking lucky, or lying. How about this, since we have a tendency to "freeze up" over talking to T, especially a new one - write her a letter with your concerns over self injury. Or even better, copy this post and give it to her. Hopefully she understands and is able to help you out.

Please don't give into the urge again tonight/today, at least until after you see T. Just try to go a minute/moment at a time, without giving into the urge. I know it's really hard work, but you can do it.

She won't turn you away, you need the support. That's what Ts do, they support us when we're finding things difficult.

Please let us know how the appt goes, okay?

Stopping is hard because it's addictive. We've made it part of our coping mechanisms, and it's hard to change our thinking about it when we're in a crisis and feeling badly. It doesn't mean you're bad or dumb - it just means you're trying to cope with struggles and things that happen in your life. Self injury isn't a healthy coping mechanism, but it does keep us alive. Sooner or later, we try to grow out of it as a coping mechanism, and then it gets a bit harder to deal with life and stuff. But you CAN learn other ways to cope, it just takes a lot of perseverance and willpower and strength.

Please be safe.