I thought the voices and patterns moving around when I close my eyes were a side effect of the medication, I was convinced of this. But when I finally get the courage to ask someone from the team i'm under (my normal contact is on leave) she says it's not the medication, more likely that it's anxiety. This is scaring me a lot. It's been years since this has happened, and only did when I was at my lowest point. I can't stop crying everytime I think about it.

In some ways I wish I'd not said anything to the team and just kept thinking it was a side effect. They're now going to make sure someone phones me each day to make sure I've not gone totally off the rails (my words, not theirs). I don't want more problems, I'm supposed to be getting better.