I completely understand how you feel and how you have reacted. I have done the same thing. I have lost jobs because I could not face my anxieties...which made my anxiety even worse!!!
Are you being treated for this?? Have you tried meds?? I'm sorry if those sound stupid, but you didn't mention it.
If you'd like to email me back, please feel free.
I am also suffering from severe anxiety and would love to talk with anyone who can empathize with me and maybe give some support!!
Try to breathe...I'm trying too!
Sherril