Kathie hon my heart is with you. On how to deal with it? No one can tell another how to grieve. Somehow we just make it thru. I know you only had her for a very short time but she felt your love. Know that she is in God's bouquet because He needed a tiny rosebud in it. Please feel free to pm me or whatever. I am here for you. Also one thing that helped my daughter and I with the death of her daughter was making a virtual memorial for her. I can give you the addy to do that if you want it. I am here for you hon. Much love to you.