Had my first appt with my T today! I like her which I didn't think I would so that was a plus. I was able to tell her about the cutting. She asked to see, but I couldn't show her any since they weren't in visiable spots except the one on the bottom of my foot ( don't ask I don't know why I did it. Wasn't very smart, cause it hurst like hell) She asked me why I told her I didn't know. that I knew I shouldn't but got urges and cut. that it made me feel ok for a bit, that it took away all the other pain even if for a brief moment. Brought up some things that I haven't talked about in years and I mean years. So when I got out (had a friend waiting for me) all I wanted to do was cut, but didn't of course cause I didn't have anything with me and my friend was there. Now that I'm home that is all I want to do and I don't know why? What is it going to do? Nothing but leave scars and bring answers later in life so why do I still want to do it? I just want to understand!!!!!!