Ok, I know it's been almost two weeks since I last cut myself, and I know it would only hurt myself and my family more if I did, but I really want to do it again Obviously, I'm not very strong. If I was, I'd try to distract myself from doing it. But I so, so want to. Ugh...

I feel that, if I did do it again, I would be letting down my parents, my counselor, and myself. A lot of the reason I stopped was because I felt that my counselor was kind of disappointed in me. The logical part of me knows this isn't true, but it's possible, isn't it?

The urge comes and goes, but I know I would feel a bit better if I did it. Especially late at night, when I feel worse. Ignore me, just rambling again.

I wasn't sure if this would be triggering, but I used the post icon anyway.