Couple weeks ago I asked how does one change and put themself first above others. I want to say thanks to those who responded. I read other post trying to figure it out. I took a chance and slowly tried alittle bit every day, not too much but just enough. Some days were good and others not. Tonight it all backfired. The one person I cared for the most I had to tell her something that would make her extremly mad and upset. Her husband thought we were having an affair which we were'nt. We live 1200 miles apart. We did spend alot of time talking though. The last thing I said to her was goodbye. Which I told her once I would never say because it ment forever. Will I put her and him first because I did not want to ruin their marriage. I could have tried to explain but probably would have made things worse. Me first not yet. I will try alittle bit again, but not anytime soon I think. The pain and guilt was not worth losing a very dear and close friend. But hey they should be happy now (no fighting cause of me).