((((((lise17))))))

It is awful to see you suffer.....really.......there are great people out there who are specifically employed to help people like you and I.

Thinker22 gave you some very valuable resources that will help you and put you in the right direction.......Please look at them and use them.

If you are actively S.I. please go to the S.I. forum there is great assistance and advice there that will really help you. It may trigger some people here and I am sure you wouldnt want to do that.

You have mentioned now on a couple of occassions that you feel like you dont want to go on with it. This is very worrying and a serious statment to make which makes us worry even more that you are not prepared to reach out IRL to get help. Again, look at the resources thinker22 has very kindly given you and MAKE THAT CALL. I am sure many of them are anonymous and will point you in the right direction.

It is time to do something about your situation.