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Originally Posted by marjan
I feel like I sabotage any relationship I get into subconsiosly then I feel sad and pitty once he doesn't want to be with me anymore.....
I know I'm putting so much thought into it and I hate to admit that, but I want to learn at least....Also, I'm getting crazy of thinking obsessevely about it....I don't feel sad or depressed, but I can't stop the thoughts....
Now that I think back, I was complaining and questioning everything from up front so quickly without knowing him at the very begining of the relationship and that's what everything goes wrong....
It's sad when you feel for somebody, but things don't go well 
sorry folks for bugging again....
I'm trying to forget and move forward, but tired of the same cycle starting again....getting so disappointed, although I don't want negetive thoughts coming to me, but it's hard to push them back....
Thanks
Marjan |
I sabatoge subconsciously too. I know how you feel. As I grew closer to turning 50, I began feeling obsessive thoughts about believing that I was too old to ever find love. ( I'm still feeling that way
) I think we need to feel good about where we are ourselves first, and accept whatever fate has lined up for our future, and not depend on what we think, or wish it could be.