I know how it feels... I have hated myself for quite a long time now. When it seems like I am finally starting to feel better about myself, I get thrown back to the floor.

My EX is a perfect example of that. When our Relationship began over a year ago, I was starting to gain confidence in myself. I fell in love with her so quickly, and everything was turning in a good direction. The next thing I know, I realize that she is lowering my confidence while I am lowering her's. We came into the relationship in opposite directions. Her Self-Esteem was lowering, while mine was raising.

Now I am back to where I began. Alone, afraid, and hating myself like never before. I feel like a miserable, worthless person who ruins everything I ever have had. Many times I have felt like I wanted to end my life, but I keep myself going. I think of the fact that one day, I will be with someone I love. I will have my luck turned. Yours will turn as well.

Don't give into your thoughts, use them to your advantage. Turn your life around, and realize that you are special. You are special, and your luck WILL change. Keep your head on straight, and just know that we are all here for you, and I am sure many other people in your life.