(((((RedCylon)))))
I agree with the advice given and think that this is a very good step. Knowing how depression is and the thoughts of suicide, getting the help you need is important. Finding someone you can trust and confide in is important. It can help you feel much more comfortable in talking. You will know if the person is right for you as you begin to talk.
Going back to your doctor about the meds that do not work is important. There are different meds that can work and you deserve to feel better. Please take care of yourself. You are worth it.
I hope that your insurance will come through for you. Keep looking and trying. There are answers out there. Please know that we care and are here to listen and support you. I think that this is a great move and will help you to feel better. Sometimes it takes a little time but you will find that person you feel comfortable talking to. And when it is time to start talking----you will know what to say.
I wish you all the luck and hope you feel better soon. Know we are here to support you and just be here for you when you need a freind.
dps