So in thinking a bit more, perhaps, am I setting my standards for the proper or perfect relationship too high? I think my "contentment" and patience frustrates all around me, lol. They get a kick at how I always prepare and plan every step and typically only act on things when its practical and mapped out (not referring to only relationships, all aspects, business, finances etc..)

Perhaps its a fear of failure or fear of the unknown? I am still kind of stuck on the feeling of selfishness for considering bringing another into my life full knowing the pressures that will follow. At this point I think I am simply working on working through the mental, its my goal to get that under control, then I would consider relationships again. Who knows how long that will take, I guess thats the "planning and mapping" part of my personality

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