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Originally Posted by horsecab
 I sabatoge subconsciously too. I know how you feel. As I grew closer to turning 50, I began feeling obsessive thoughts about believing that I was too old to ever find love. ( I'm still feeling that way  ) I think we need to feel good about where we are ourselves first, and accept whatever fate has lined up for our future, and not depend on what we think, or wish it could be. |
Thanks for your reply....I think it's good that we are recognizing our mistakes and issues....that's the first step towards knowing ourselves...
ya...we can get to the negetive thoughts about our age, but age is all reletive!
I have a friend who is in her early 50s and got married for the third time to a doctor and she's very happy....When she told me about her life story which was really sad and challenging, she ended up this way....Oh Marjan, it took me 52 years to find love of my life! and she's very happy....
So, we never know! I think we don't have to lose our hope that's all it matters....
Today, I woke up and I felt I don't care about anything really...He was a jerk and I don't need him in my life...He will make my life misrable...at least now I have hope to find somebody else...I've been in a good relationship that I know how it feels when the man is really in love and I love him back...that's awesome....
We don't have to let negetive thoughts bother us....
Last night, I slept 8 hours and in the morning I felt so fresh and new...I think that's mostly missing from my life...yes...sleeping well...because I'm all about thinking thinking and then I don't get enough sleep and I'm tired and kranky the whole day...then I get sad and I make stupid mistakes....
Hope for having inner peace....I think I'm getting better by the time at least....
take care
Marjan