Hmmm. I guess it is kinda puzzling to most people, especially those who haven't ever been abused in any way.. But then again.. I guess almost everyone in the world is abused in some way, big or small..

Sleep doesn't seem important to me, though.. Whether something interesting is going on or not, I'm always helping someone whether it's a big or a small problem.. Even if I am asleep, I dream about it within the space of an hour and wake up sweating, crying, screaming, hugging my pillow, anything and then i can't get back to sleep.. I mean I know sleep is important, but to me, it's just another thing that everyone else can do and I can't at the moment and that just frustrates me.

I feel so tired and weak.. My nexk hurts, my head aches, I feel sick and I just keep breaking out in a sweat every now and then for no reason, then going really hot and cold again, feeling sick again and getting quite bad stomach pains. Ugh. Hate it when things like this happen. I hate being ill