Today I went to get the report from the psychiatrist and my general practitioner concerning my condition and although they both told me that I would have to be off work for at least another 3 months, seeing it in a written report was a shock. I also have to change my antidepressants and in order to do so, go cold turkey for 2 weeks, very scared of withdrawal since getting off the benzos and I have to take Ativan in the meanwhile, another Benzo...I am getting very frustrated with all of this, I really wish I could go back to what I was, although depressed, a functionning, productive adult, anxious but not paralyzed with fear and anxiety!
I am so grateful I found this site where I feel understood without being judged and not so alone.
Well, like I wrote 3 days ago, it is time for a change...a positive change, a life free of fear and crippling anxiety, all I want is to feel like my normal self.